many blessings… good friends August 7, 2008
Lately I have felt that although we have been so busy with friends — I’ve been completely surrounded by people, who I know love me, and care for me…. I have felt lonely…. in a room for of people, I feel as if I am by myself. It’s been a bit of a stuggle, because I didn’t know if I was just ’sulking’ or if I was down about something, or if it was just related to being tired…. but I couldn’t seem to bounce back, or pull out of it.
Phil has been wonderful and really trying to encourage me — trying to ‘fix’ things like most guys like to do, and this was something, a feeling or state that couldn’t just be fixed. The other day, I was feeling quite low about things and just when I was hitting the bottom… 3 wonderful people stepped out, and showed me they cared. Just when I needed it, at the perfect time they let me know they were thinking of me, and made the effort to find out where I was at!!! God is good!!! Last night for the 1st time in a little while i was totally able to sleep through the night, felt totally relaxed and free again. I was starting to be full again.. I was encouraged!!!
I had the opportunity to meet with 3 great friends, and share with them individually how I was feeling, where I am at, and be honest and true about my life. That is what I needed, and it was not in my time but definitely in God’s time… perfect time.
The big thing I am learning right now is who ‘I’ am as a person again…. I’ve always been very sure of who I was as an individual — but am still learning who I am as a wife-who we are as a couple-who I am as ‘this’ individual. It’s been challenging, but good. I am still me, but in a different season and a different time, and that is okay…. exciting really, in the end that is! I just don’t like the process… but I learn more and more each day, and in the end the getting there is all worth it.
) – I really am blessed by ALL the wonderful people in my life!!!
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