Reflection… July 31, 2008
Today I was walking to work, and there were a few puddles on the ground and when I looked at them, some had beautiful reflections of what was around them…. made me feel a little like reflecting today.
Recently I watched a movie — I’ve actually watched it twice now…. and if you haven’t watched it you must! P.S I love you. It is an amazing movie, very well done. But I wont lie it will make you cry! A good big cry! So be prepared, with kleenex and watch it on a day you are feeling someone emotionally strong cause well it hits all those ‘tear’ places.
I don’t want to give away the movie but it’s challenged me a lot about living. (I know that I talked a little about this in a past post too). Do you really need to have a big savings account to live? How about a big house? A new car? Are those really the things that start our life?? I don’t think so (but don’t get me wrong they are all awesome, and I too wouldn’t mind any of the above), I think that life isn’t about our possessions or our success. We need to live in the here and now and make a difference. We need to make friendships that last, tell those around us we care (we don’t number our number of days), do things now, not later!! We need to put presidence on things that happen once… and stop saying, maybe next year. I don’t mean things such as taking a trip to the Dominican… that could wait…. I mean take charge of your life and make a difference with your friends and family.
A while ago one of our elders spoke on “starting with the end in mind”, and he said we should live lifes that at our funeral people are being honest and not using ‘funeral talk’ — example: s/he was strongwilled = s/he was stubborn. But to be honest about what kind of life we led and what kind of person we were.
I’ve been pondering what kind of person I want to be at the end of my life…. I want to be someone who was welcoming and loving, who cared and listened, someone who was respected and trusted, someone who was not proud – willing to be wrong, I want to be rememebed of my life I lived for God, by my actions by the way I lived my life… not because of the words I spoke, a family person, God willing a wonderful mother. When I die, I want my life to celebrated!!
Now, this post is not to be depressing or anything — and probably seems like a bunch or rumble-gumble, and it may well be…. but it’s my thoughts…. and I’m learning right now, learning a lot about life!!! I truly love my life — I have an amazing husband who I love and cherish so much, wonderful parents who still teach me things everyday(maybe not everyday, but whenever we chat), a fabulous sister, who is encouraging and loving and suppports me no matter what, I am surrounded by friends young and old who I can turn to for anything and I am forever grateful…. and so many more people who have touched my life in different ways!
I am living life… Phil and I are living our life… it’s an amazing life that was created just for us!!!!!